HAPPY BIRTHDAY SUET YI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :D

taking everything away. its too late. why did i think that? its not like i expected much. but i had hopes, dreams and everything else that comes with. but yet, it just all falls away. not today. i'm taking it all back.

i gave you my heart.

did you learn to accept it?

sweetness of everyone is not gonna cheer me up.

its not going to change anything.

i know what you're thinking. day after day. and i know its about me. and all my faults. but you don't have to say them out loud for everyone to hear. i know all of them. i memorised them.

but did you know, i also memorised all your words. and its irritating. its irritating me. that i remember what you say. every little thing.

why can't you just hear what i'm saying? that i really do love you!

anyone wants free love? you can just take it. i'll give it to anyone who asks.

because this time, i'm not going help break this spell. i'll just give it to someone else.

love for sale.

yeah. wasn't this what you wanted?

i love you. now, tell me if you still want it.

deliciously sweet, that's what you are.


i'm sleepy. :D








i just want to eat you up. HAHA. not. i want to stay with you forever and ever. and never let go. andd. whatever else anyone can think about. :D

realised i haven't been blogging in AGES. which is actually good. :D too much homework? that shows i'm HARDWORKING, NOT. hahah.

yeah. welllll... chinese and history are turning out to be the best lessons EVER. which is amazing. can anyone imagine what the others are like?? SIGH.

oh and pearlyn wrote this-
i'm a harriet girl, in a harriet world.
life as harriet is so damn weird.

HAHAHAHAH. i completely agree. :D

anyways, i've been writing these few nonsesical paragraphs which really don't make sense to anyone BUT me. :D

here are two of them:

don't need to be pampered to be bothered.
don't need presents to actually care.
but all i need is for someone to sharea hug with me.
someone, anyone.
to feel the warmth, to hear the heartbeat.
to know that i'm not alone.
to finally believe its not my fault.
that it wasn't wrong to pick up the phone.
i need a hug, from ANYONE.

what is wrong with the girl?
the girl who's been pissing me off DAILY.
how irritating hse is, thats what i can't stand.
she made my life a whole lot worse.
i couldn't wait to shoo her away, to get my eyes off her.
to block her from my life.
too bad i can't do that seeing as...
she's in my class -sobs-

most of my juniors are horrid except for a few. who can guess who? :D

btw, for anyone to know, school is downright boring. and there's nothing i can look forward to. except maybe when i go home. don't you think? even i, harriet phang, who can't stand staying at home and usually loves school. hates school.

TAG REPLIES:

RUIQI: hello. :D sighhhh. i seem to see you ALOT during recess.

DENISE: please stop talking crap on my blog, before i kill you on sunday.:D

PEARLYN: cheer up darling! everything's gonna be fine, SOMEHOW. :D

SHAKI: HELLO!!!!

HAHHAHAHA. :D
I LOVE WEEKENDS AND EVERYTHING TO DO WITH WEEKENDS. :D

tag replies:

RUIQI; what are you talking about?!?! :S anyways, i highly doubt andro and gang even really like me.

ZOEY; HAHAHH. i think its funnier that you're jealous of my DARLING PEARLYN. :D

PISSED OFF. :D which is seriously brilliant. :D the days are getting WORST AND WORST. and that's GREAT. one day it'll just be so bad that i'll break down and faint/cry/lose consciousness.

I PROMISE NEVER TO DO THAT AGAIN.

how can anyone trust me when i alr broke another promise? :D

SCHOOL IS HORRID. I NEVER EVER WANNA GO BACK!!! WHY CAN'T ANYONE SEE THAT?

ermmmm. i realised that i'm seriously not looking forward to school because of the PEOPLE. like classmates and teachers.. HMM. guess who? HAH.

i miss migin. ):

ruiqi owes me a drawing. no backing out.

HOMEWORK:

1. CS (the script)
2. CHINESE (ying yong wen)
3. SCIENCE (practical workbook)
4. ENGLISH (the 'important day' thing)
5. ART (self portrait)
6. MATH (exercise 2.1)

OTHERS:

1. need to study for hist test.
2. need to study for science test.
3. ting xie.
4. study for english test.
5. study for lit test.


SEC 2 IS NUTS. yuck.

andand. there are wayyy toooo many tests. sigh.
trust me, its gonna be tough.
why the hell am i still blogging?!?!?!

RUIQI; please don't make me read so many tags EVER again. k?

BITCH. i'm reallyreally stupid. reallyreally.

'HMPF. yeahhhh. so what? huhhhhh...' great conversation.

sighhhh. i think i've really lost it. sighs.

what have i been thinking??? i can't believe i saw pearlyn drawing on her hand with a pencil and i decidedly impulsively to see how it'd feel and whether a pencil could cut me. HUH. yeahhh. IT DID CUT ME. now there's a mark on my wrist. -shhhhh- HOW COULD I?!?!? and i keep having these urges to do it AGAIN. WTH. pleaseeee... STOP ME!!!

i think i need help.

HAHAHAH. THE PAST FEW DAYS WERE WEIRD

1. CCA FAIR. :D it was wonderful. i'm going every year. ARICIA!! i want the video of azalea 'pole dancing'

2. zoey loh's brother is SICK. (i don't care what you say zoey.) thank god i don't have that kind of brother. CURIOUSITY KILLED THE CAT. :D

3. i was wayyy too hyper yesterday. :D AHHAHAHAHHAHAHHAHAH.

4. ruiqi owes me a drawing. and she's really old. i think i may have traumatised her... :D -shakes head-

5. xiao tian MAY join LD. I HOPE SHE DOES!!! :D

oh and. STOP SPAMMING MY INBOX. :D HEHEH
longing for the taste of you. :D

ZOEY LOH'S MESSAGES SPOIL MY PHONE. :D

taking the time to think. finally. but i'm not preparing my self for anything. i'm just chilling, as much as i can that is.

i hate school. given the chance, i wouldn't EVER go back to c1. however much i love that class. the only thing to look forward to is going home. that used to be impossible.

not looking forward to anything. and its the beginning of the year. thinking of the time i have to spend waiting for each day to last takes forever. i'm going to try my best to forget this year. this life.

i can't stand the way.. (fill in the blanks yourself) there are too many things that fill it up.

talked to jianzhong. he misses my mum. :D my mummy is missed!! :D

i like xiaotian. 1c1er. she's damn nice.

i can't look back now. i'm too far ahead. it took too long. i hate this.

I NEVER WANT TO GO TO SCHOOL EVER AGAIN.

thanks though. it took me too long to figure out too. you should have told me earlier.

trust me, its not crap. its your mind that puts you up to it. its the thought of never... (fill in the blanks) that hurt. its the knowledge thats too much to handle. it seems like i'm on the verge of running out of school everyday. i wouldn't spemd an extra minute there. its just too hard. and i hate you bitch for ruining this. I HATE YOU. however much its too strong to say that, its just a fact.

I HATE PBL. I HATE IT. I HATE IT. I HATE IT. REALLY REALLY HATE IT.

i'm dead the next time you see me.

:D GOODBYE BITCH.

I'M IN LOVE WITH TIGGER. :D