HAPPY BIRTHDAY LD BESTIE<3
ily! <3
I SHALL WRITE YOU A NICE NICE LETTER TOMORROW, AND GIVE ON FRIDAY. (:




WHAT IS WRONG WITH THE PEOPLE IN THIS PLANET AND NOT BELIEVING THAT I AM NOT GAY?

Imagine if i was.

HAHAHAHA. (This is getting stupid)

REALLY. =.-

HAHA.

I told myself i WOULDN'T go online.
But guess what? I am online.
HUH.
Smart Harriet.

Suet Yi left her key at home, and guess what, SHE'S STUCK OUTSIDE!
HAHAHA.

This day just gets funnier.

My chinese dictionary died halfway through exam today.
HUH. BUT, i realised i don't really need it.
Because i knew most of the words,
I was always just too lazy to think :P

I'm closing every conversation that pops out.

(Like that's gonna work)

Blah,
Starbucks caramel frap = amazing.

I nearly got hit by a LEARNER DRIVER today. =.-
At first, the idiot was driving at what 20km/h?!?
and he was so far away. So i decided to cross the road(:
THEN I GUESS THE TEACHER THOUGHT HE WAS TOO SLOW OR SOMETHING.
BECAUSE, ALL OF A SUDDEN, HE SUDDENLY SPED UP (A WHOLE LOT)
Man, THANKGOD the redlight turned at the RIGHT time. Because the orange light thing, Yeah well, it suddenly turned when i stepped what 5 steps. (This is when he sped up)
and he braked hard like shit when it turned red.
THAT WAS WHEN I SAW THE 'L' SIGN. =.-

I'm starting to think this is so, weird.

JANTU! HERE I COME! I WILL DO A 'BIOGRAPHY' ON YOU! (:

HARRIET

I can't comment.
because that wouldn't make a whole lot of sense at all.
Why can't you see this too?
That this isn't working.
That i can't be this person
that you want me to?

I'd rather Just pretend that I never ever met you.
But that wouldn't work either,
Because i did meet you
And because,
YEAH WELL,

Just take in the point that i can't pretend that I've never met you.

I'm still high, yes i know.

I'm still impossibly high.

But its going down.
Like a fever.

BLAH.

Chinese compo tomorrow.
I shall try to remember SOMETHING.

HARRIET

AHHHH!
I CAN'T THINK.
I'm in an amazingly bad mood.

My mum can sense it i think. She's kinda, leaving me alone.
THANKGOD.

I can't think.

Science was bril.
I really pray that i ace it.
I WANNA DO WELL.

Blah, Its nearly impossible to feel anything anymore.
I have turned completely numb

PEARLYN: Lol, Jubjub. I remember now!(:
SY: LAME LAH.
TOP(s): LET ME GUESS, SUET YI AND PEARLYN. RIGHTTT. HAHA(: Hello! I have NO IDEA who is top thank you.
ZL: Haha, Yeah. five times?

HARRIET

I WAS HYPER JUST NOW.
Yeah well, today has been a complete bore.
REALLY. Hmpf.

Well, During PE, we were supposed to do what, some project on SMOKING.
What the..
I GOT CHOCOLATE FROM ZOEY(:
I shan't comment.
But in the end, just started 'studying' Biology.
Haha, with Zoey. But in the end fell asleep (a little)
So zoey took her Tablet over,
AND WE PUT LIES BY BIGBANG ON REPEAT!
((: PLAYED ICYTOWER TOO.
So fun(:
(Right!)
But i became very sleepy, so kinda fell asleep.
KINDA.
SADLY, THE RECESS BELL RANG.
Went for recess
After recess, Tessa Ying and Liz kept Poking Zoey
(Me and suet swear that Zoey enjoyed that) :DDD
MATH WAS, NORMAL YEAH.
NOW ITS CS.
AND LATER ITS HISTORY.
I WILL DIE AN EARLY DEATH LATER, TRYING TO STUDY.

BLAH.

HARRIET

Stress has really come over me.
Serious.
I don't know what to do.
Wanna know how i'm so freaking stressed?
My blood Pressure keeps dropping.
I feel like I'm gonna faint.
I dream of exams.
I dream of fainting.
I dream of scary shit.
I'm worried.
I can't sleep well.
I can't put anything in my head.
I think i'm gonna fail.

And that's how i know I'm stressed.
because the last time i felt like this was in
P6.
PSLE.
Hell,
This is only MYEs kay.
What will happen during EYEs?
I'll faint halfway through the exam huh.
RIGHT.
Harriet, you need to chill.

NOW, I had the weirdest dream last night.
I dreamt of ******* ****'* ****.
The whole night. It wasn't torture.
It was very nice actually.
BUT, I don't want that. Weird dream.
Thankgod it was a dream.
WHOSE FAULT FOR MAKING ME DREAM THAT HUH.
Blah.
I shall not comment anymore.
No one ask me what i dreamt about please.
Guess it yourself if you want.

AWMAN, I can't seem to find any of my stuffs.
WHERE'S TIGGER.
I WANT TIGGER NOW.

But i don't want to ask my mum.
She just scolded me for eating slowly.
=.- seriously.
wth.

I don't know what to think anymore.
I swear my unconscious mind is pulling me somewhere.
And i know where its going.
POINT: i don't wanna go there.
Its not who I am, and it'll never be who I am.

I forgot.
There was something i wanted to post since, Friday.
Yknow the Compo questions?
Yeah well, I wanted to write Number One yeah?
The one about forgiving.
But because of the night before,
There was only one thing i could think of.
And that wasn't suitable.
Made me hurt abit more instead.
So i stopped thinking of a story for it.
and went with another question
I had to.
If i really wrote about Number One, I'd seriously,
Well, let's say, halfway through the story,
I bet that I would have suddenly changed story line.
Because I'd have stopped thinking.
I'd have written everything on my mind,
and i doubt the marker would actually understand.
Not that anyone does.
No one does.
Do they?

I feel stupid.
F.
F me.
I don't care no more.
About me.
I don't care about me.
I wanna break the promise.
NOW.
I WANNA BREAK IT NOW.
I don't care.
SCREAM. (:

I shall stop sounding emo.
although everything i just typed out is, like, true? Lol.
Don't bother. (:
I cry too much.(:

HARRIET
TIGGER, WHERE ARE YOU!

SHIT. (: I was supposed to LISTEN in science.
LALALALA, let me fail science like crap kay.
SIGH.

YEAH, HYPER SHIT NOW.
LALALALALA. ((:
Am gonna go try the science paper. (:

OH AND, CAN SUET, SIM OR ZOEY CALL ME ASAP?
(lol) i need you guys help yeah? (:

It seems like i can't do this, then what's gonna happen in the future?
And now every song reminds me of what happened.

Don't make me think about everything.
I won't
I shan't
I can't
I ain't gonna
I will not cry.
I won't.
I shan't
I can't
This ain't happening.

Best sleep in the century.
I think i spoke when i slept during exam yesterday.
I think i said 'it hurts'
I can't be sure, but i think i did.
Man,
It really did. (:

PEARLYN: i Do visit your blog kay! Huh. (:
LD BESTIE: (: YEAH! I love you too! <3
MJ: HAHA, can tell. Im always high on sugar too! (:
DENISE: HUH? why? Its fine, HAHA, its not like you heard the song before. (:
SUETYI: OMH. what are you doing awake so late at night? HAHAH, Hello Teukie too.(:

HARRIET

WOOHOO. TWO HUNDREDTH POST! (finally)

HARRIET SHALL CHILL AS SHE IS VERY HIGH NOW.

That motorcycle nearly hit me! Ooh!
And i didn't break any promise. Because i didn't want that. ((:
OOH.

NO YOU HANG UP

Verse:
You got my attention at hello
We had this connection that wouldn’t let go
There was something sexy ‘bout your voice
Anything you say makes a beautiful noise

And now we break up to make up right away
Just an excuse to lay in bed all day
I know that this thing we have won't ever change
And that’s why I have the confidence to say

CHORUS:
A lot of girls are sexy
but you know how to use it
You can keep me up on the phone all night
We say lets hang up on 3 but we don’t ever do it
Aint it crazy how after all this time
We got that you hang up no you hang up kinda love
We got that you hang up no you hang up kinda love

Verse:
Every time you call me, I wont lie
I still get the goosebumps I felt the first time
That I saw you walk into a room
Girl you hand me hooked on that beautiful view

And now we break up to make up right away
Just an excuse to lay in bed all day
I know that this thing we have wont ever change
And that’s why I have the confidence to say

CHORUS

Bridge:
And baby you still know just how to
Blow my mind
After everything that we’ve been through
It still feels right
And I know, that I can’t
Picture living my life without you

CHORUS




PRETTY SONG. ((: Suet thinks so too i bet!
LALALA. ((; So does Pearlyn!

Harriet is high now, but i know better.
She'll go all sad again.
But she's gonna forget. (:
She's gonna (:

We got that You hang up no you hang up kinda love.

SO COOL. <3

I don't want hugs anymore.
They're starting to feel cold.
I want to be protected forever.

HARRIET

THE HEARTS JUST LOOK STUPID NOW. HAHAH


I don't wanna give up

I shall not think. I shall not feel. I shall not cry.
I shall not be so emotionally unstable.
I think i looked dead today.

Was stuck outside the house (forgot to bring key)
And because i told my mum i was going for math remedial, so she wasn't home.
Sigh, my phone's battery was dead too. What the hell. Haha.


PEARLYN: Haha, Ego you. ((: Ily bestie too. Haha,
CHEESE/CAITLIN: HELLO CAITLIN. Did i mention Thankyou? And i wanted to say something kinda not so nice. But suet told me not to, at least she told me it was bitchy. But whatever. Yeah? Hello Again.
SUET: HAHAHA, YOU'VE GONE NUTS! ((:
SHAKI: (((: I WILL. I WILL. <3 Suet's gone out of her mind!

HARRIET

AHHHH!!!!!!!!!!
I WANT TO SCREAM MY HEAD OFF.
AND I CAN'T UNDERSTAND WHY I'M HERE, BLOGGING. AT 12 AM AND THERE'S AN EXAM TOMORROW.
WHAT AM I THINKING.

F YOU.
F ME.
I'm sorry.

I'M GONNA FAIL ENGLISH.
I'M CRYING AT 12AM ON AN EXAM DAY.
DAMN SMART HARRIET.
I'M SO DEAD.

SHITSHITSHIT.
SCREAMSCREAMSCREAMSCREAM.

my heart has just been ripped out.
OUCH.

Promises are meant to be kept.
Just not mine.
how does that make any sense at all?

I'm so sorry,

HARRIET

ANOTHER QUIZ. MAN. Haha

(( W H A T i S Y O U R... ))
Full Name: HARRIET
Birthday: FIRST MARCH. ((: MUST REMEMBER!
Age: 14
Birthplace: Some little dot named Singaore
Hair Color: Black? I think. (:
Hair Length: Not sure. Haha
Eye Color: BLACK.
Zodiac Sign: Dogg?
Shoe Size: 7
Relationship Status: Single man, Single. (Who wants me! You can have me, I don't want me)
Greatest Fear: Darkness and being Alone
Greatest Weakness: Sweet-ness. (Just be sweet and I'm under your command man)
Worst Habit: ERR, LAZY SHIT. Haha

(( D O Y O U... ))
Wear Glasses: yes
Wear Contacts: yes (Haha, Both)
Have Any Tattoos: No
Have Any Piercings: Nope. Not at all
Smoke: Yuck
Drink: Nope
Like Anyone: yes? my friends? Lol, I like a lot of people, since they're nice. (:
Love Anyone: Yes. ((: MY FRIENDS. ((:
Forgive Easily: Nope. I carry grudges.
Hold Grudges: (Oops, answered above. ) Lol
Have Any Regrets: YES. That day.
Have Any Addictions: yeah, addicted to _. (: (I'm not gonna say, because then it'll be stupid and weird question will be raised)
Like to Read: Kinda. Eclipse you mean. (:
Like to Write: Nope. (:

(( C A N Y O U... ))
Drive Good: Can't drive yet
Drive a Stick: WHAT?
Roll Your Tongue: Sure.
Dance: hehe, Looks stupid. But sure. Who can't?
Sing: Awfully yes. ((:
Play an Instrument: Once again, Does the recorder count?
Swim: Yesh
Do the Motorcycle: Woah, the way they put the question makes it sound like some dance. Lol. No i can't drive/ride a motorbike. Blame Singapore for putting an age for Driving.

(( H A V E Y O U E V E R... ))
Been in Love: maybe?
Kissed in the Rain: Nope. But aww, that sounds so sweet. ((:
Been Mudding: What?
Rode a Four-Wheeler: WHAT?
Rode a Horse: Yesh!
Been Cheated On: Not sure
Cheated on a Test: YESH
Toilet-Papered Someone's House: Nope. (:
Gone Camping: P5 camp!
Gone Hunting: Nope. To kill animals! How could i!
Gone Fishing: BORING. I'm serious. Fishing for my dinner the other time was gonna kill me.
Been to a Race: race? Like what kind?
Stayed Up All Night: Yeapps. (:
Skipped School: UHHUH.
Broken a Bone: Not Yet, but knowing me, one day i will.
Had Stitches: Nope. (:
Had an X-Ray: YES
Been in a Wreck: I wish. I really wish.
Wanted Someone You Couldn't Have: UHHUH.
Told Someone What You Really Thought About Them: yeah. It went something like this 'I think you suck and that you really should just change your whole self'

(( F A V O R I T E S ))
Color: Purple/ Red/ Black/ Baby Blue
Food: ICECREAM
Number: 1-25 (esp 1,3,7,14,25)
Band/Singer: ERR, I really don't have one. Hmm,
Song: Cold As You by Taylor Swift. (but its slowly changing to 'No Promises' by Shayne Ward)
Movie: Hmm, don't have one
Book: ECLIPSE.
Car: Hmm, don't have one
Ice Cream Flavor: SOYA
Animal: DOGS

(( T H I S O R T H A T ))
Hugs or Kisses: Both. I can't help that. ((:
Pepsi or Coke: Coke
Chocolate or Vanilla: CHOCOLATE. (:
Summer or Winter: Winter
Hot or Cold:: Cold. I hate Hot. But i don't like Cold that much either.
Day or Night: Day, Night makes me feel alone
Love or Money: Love
Looks or Personality: Personality (though looks help. Heehee)
Rock or Rap: Neither. (:
Country or Rap: Country
Country Boy or Pretty Boy: Pretty Boy
Dogs or Cats: Dogs
Romantic Night In or Wild Night Out: Romantic night in (lying on whoever and hugs. (: HAHA. )

(( R A N D O M ))
Is There Someone You'd Take a Bullet For: YES. MANY PEOPLE.
What Are You Wearing: Clothes man, Clothes
What Are You Thinking: I'm thinking how FREAKING LAME THIS QUESTION IS.
What Are You Listening To: Cold As You by Taylor Swift!
What Did You Do Yesterday: I don't remember
What Did You Do Today: Many things. Hmm, Apparently, i even held someone's hand! (and i don't remember.)
Are You in School: Nope, at home
What Grade: grade? Lol, Sec 2 kay
Number of Times You've Moved: None. None at all. (:
Ever Lived Down a Dirt/Gravel Road: NO.
What If You Knew You Were Gonna Die Soon: I'd be the happiest kid in the world.

WHEN AM I GONNA DIE. (i hope tomorrow)
Haha, I wasn't meant to die?
Why not. I'd love to.

Make that TWO quizes.
Let's try to make this interesting, shall we? (:

(The all repeating question)What is your first name? Harriet

What is going through your mind? How bored Shit I am
Is there someone special on your mind? Yeapps.
If so, what makes them special. I don't know.
How many people know your deepest dark secret? Do i have one?
Do you ever regret telling people your secret? I regret telling most secrets
Do you put stickers on your cellphone? NOPE. (:
What are 5 things that are going on around you? Err, Fan running, song playing, mummy talking, lights on and Joleen Eating
What are 2 things you wish weren't going on? My life and me Breathing
What do you enjoy doing? Using the stupid addictive tablet.
What is one positive thing that happened to you today? i don't know. Hmm
What's one negative thing? I FORGET EVERYTHING. Hmpf. I'm kinda amazed at WHAT i forget.
How many people do you talk to on a daily basis? Everybody. Haha
Name 5 emotions that you feel right now. sad, shock, hurt, love, and sleepy (is that an emotion?)
Name 3 emotions you wish you were feeling. Happy, happy and happy.
Do you have anything planned for the weekend? Yeah, studying, studying and more studying
Where are people most likely to find you after school/work? Home, Home and Home
Do you have a stalker? Nope. (: thankgod
Have you ever stalked anyone(for fun or seriously) Harriet ain't a stalker okay!
Do you like to tease? Yeapps
Do you like to BE teased? No
Do you like little kids? YESH.
Have you ever considered having them in the future? ERR, MAYBE?
Do you smoke, drink, or do drugs? None of those
What are 13 things you want to do before you die?
1. to drive
2. to drink
3. hmm, to be loved?
4. Jump off a cliff
5. See everyone one more time
AIYAH, THAT'S ALL. (: There's not much i wanna do
Are you a social person? Not sure, Am i? I guess?
Will you change for anyone? Or just when needed? Yes i will change. Shit i shouldn't, But i do anyway
Has anyone asked you to change? Yeah
Have YOU ever asked anyone to change? LOADS OF TIMES
What are you doing right now other then this semi long survey? Talking to Ruiqi, asking her for papers. Haha
What is something that you do that would be considered "Odd" Err, Many things. and the things running through my mind are private.
Are you currently seeing anyone? Seeing? yeah. I see my mum. Haha
How does that make you feel? Make me feel what? I see my mum for god's sake.
Is there something you're not looking forward to in the future? Yeah, people leaving
Have you ever ran face first into glass? YESH.
Do you ever act high/drunk when you go out with friends? act? I'm always High. But doesn't mean that it lasts.
Have you ever thought about getting a tattoo on your toe? NO? who's gonna see THAT.
Where are you in your house/apartment/etc? Where am I? I'm in my room
What's your idea of the "perfect date"? That romantic date with you?
Do you believe Penguins will take over the world? YES THEY WILL, WITH THEIR CUTE-NESS AND ALL.
Have you ever wanted something/someone but never could have it? Yes. Right now.
Do you shop until you drop? YESH
When you go out, what are 3 things you tend to always do?
1. Walk in front of a car
2. Shop
3. Buy stuffs.
Do you like animals? Yeapps
Do you actually care about the future of our planet Earth? NOPE
What are ways you tried to help/not help the world? I use Plastic bags. Haha
Do you believe what the NEWS says most of the time? Nope, don't watch it. Haha,
Do you even listen to the weather report? Never.
What's better, making out or holding that person close in your arms? close in my arms, i can just feel it. I'm never letting go of anyone.
Do you think you can tell someone's/your future? Yeapps, Psychic remember!
Do you seriously give a crap about what people think of you? yes i do, I find them real interesting to listen to.
What's one annoying thing you do? Drama, (:
Who in more annoying in your family? MY SISTER, The little crybaby
Are you living life day by day or do you map out the future? Map out the future, But then, nothing goes as plan
Are you an over achiever? how can i be an over achiever if i have never achieved?
Are you laid back? way too much
What are you thinking about now? Thinking about HOW STUPID THIS QUESTION IS
Ok done, tell me, are you even more bored than when you started? Nope, Quite happy actually. (:

HARRIET.

Will you walk a thousand miles to see me.
No you won't.

My head feels way too light.
Like its floating.
hell.

Its spinning.

Memories.
Of those days.
That hold me back from doing anything stupid.

I WILL.

I shall.

OHOH, STUPID THING THAT HAPPENED TODAY/YESTERDAY (cannot remember).
Pearlyn was sad, so i told her she'd find someone better.
Like me. (that's what i said.) LOL.
And she said 'you're a girl!'
SO I TOLD HER. "if i was a guy, you would!"

RIGHT. LOL. so stupid.

HARRIET

Morals. Something i don't have. at all. Sigh,
I know i should have some. But i really don't. Just look at me!
How can I, HARRIET, have any morals? HUH?
How is it possible! And thus, i conclude, that, i do not have any morals. At all. None. Nothing. Zilch. Boohoo.

Got this at Yimin's blog. I noticed the announcement too. So funny. And lame. Lol



Damned funny. Hehe.
Lol, i can't help but laugh like SHIT. (((:

I'm starting to hate myself.
Alot.
I cannot make stupid promises.
Sigh.
I know it'll happen again today.
And that i'll start crying like shit after.
Because i'll be damned guilty.
That's why i have to stop.
I have to!
I can't not.
Sigh.

I love my Friends like Shit. ((:
I reallyreally do.
There are so many people that are like stars that shine to me.
Of course there are one or two that shine brighter.
Duh, guess who.
But, they all shine, and the sky is brightened.
And i don't feel so alone amongst the stars.
Me, that little black dot.
That doesn't shine.
Yeah, Mmhmm. ((:

"No Promises"

Hey baby, when we are together, doing things that we love.
Every time you're near I feel like I’m in heaven, feeling high
I don’t want to let go, girl.
I just need you to know girl.

I don’t wanna run away, baby you’re the one I need tonight,
No promises.
Baby, now I need to hold you tight, I just wanna die in your arms

Here tonight

Hey baby, when we are together, doing things that we love.
Everytime you're near I feel like I’m in heaven, feeling high
I don’t want to let go, girl.
I just need you to know girl.

I don’t wanna run away, baby you’re the one I need tonight,
No promises.
Baby, now I need to hold you tight, I just wanna die in your arms

I don’t want to run away, I want to stay forever, through Time and Time..
No promises

I don’t wanna run away, I don’t wanna be alone
No Promises
Baby, now I need to hold you tight, now and forever my love

No promises

I don’t wanna run away, baby you’re the one I need tonight,
No promises.
Baby, now I need to hold you tight, I just wanna die in your arms

I don’t wanna run away, baby you’re the one I need tonight,
No promises.
Baby, now I need to hold you tight, I just wanna die in your arms
Here tonight.


The song rocks.
'Now i need to hold you tight, now and forever my love'
((: mmhmm

HARRIET

DID THIS BECAUSE I WAS BORED SHIT.

ABC of Me

The Letter A
Are you available?: available. Hmm, NO I'M NOT. I'M BUSY, STUDYING FOR EXAMS. (:
What is your age?: 14
What annoys you?: IRRITATING PEOPLE.

The Letter B
Do you live in a big house?: YTHINK. Nope
When is your birthday?: FIRST OF MARCH. BETTER REMEMBER
Who is your best friend?: PEARLYN TAY. <3

The Letter C
What's your favorite candy?: M&MS! <3
When was the last time you cried?: today. (:\

The Letter D
Do you daydream?: UHHUH, who doesn't?
What day of the week is it?: WEDNESDAY. ((:

The Letter E
How do you like your eggs?: HARRIET ONLY LIKES SUNNY SIDE UPS.
Have you ever been in the emergency room?: NOPE. though i hope. car accident. (:
What's the easiest thing ever to do?: Use the computer. ((:

The Letter F
Have you ever flown in a plane?: YESH
Do you use fly swatters?: who does? I've never even seen one. Hmmm
Have you ever used a foghorn?: what is a foghorn? Lol.

The Letter G
Do you chew gum?: CMON, SINGAPORE DON'T ALLOW GUM OKAY!
Are you a giver or a taker?: TAKER.
Do you like gummy candies?: YESH!

The Letter H
How are you?: not so well at the moment.
What color is your hair?: Black shit.

The Letter I
What's your favorite ice cream?: SOYA ICE CREAM!!
Have you ever ice skated?: UHHUH, ON REAL ICE ON A REAL LAKE . ((:
Do you play an instrument?: does the recorder count?

The Letter J
Do you wear jewelry?: sometimes, (aka, special occasions((: )

The Letter K
Who do you want to kill?: MEMEME AND ME.
Do you want kids?: Maybe?
Where did you go for kindergarten?: ERR, JCCK! <3

The Letter L
Are you laid back?: Lazy you mean. haha
Do you lie?: thousands of times

The Letter M
Whats your favorite movie?: can't remember
Do you still watch Disney movies?: YESH!

The Letter N
Do you have a nickname?: You really don't wanna know. ((:
What is your real name?: HARRIET
Whats your favorite number?: 1 - 25
Do you prefer night over day?: I like day. Night scares me, i feel alone- er

The Letter O
What's your one wish?: Hmm, that car crash
Are you an only child?: I WISH.

The Letter P
What one fear are you most paranoid about?: Being Alone
What are your pet peeves?: pet peeves? Lol, err, What?
What's a personality trait you look for in people?: sweet. (:

The Letter Q
What's your favorite quote?: I promise to love you forever- every single day of forever.
Are you quick to judge people?: a bit too quick.

The Letter R
Do you think you're always right?: nearly. Haha
Are you one to cry?: Everyday

The Letter S
Do you prefer sun or rain?: SUN, hold on, too warm, but i don't like rain.
Do you like snow?: YESH.
What's your favorite season?: Winter, summer, spring AND autumn

The Letter T
What time is it?: 8.18pm
What time did you wake up?: 5.45am
When was the last time you slept in a tent?: ERR, Never (: i think.

The Letter U
Are you wearing underwear?: YESH. (What kinda question! ((: HAHA )
Underwear or boxers?: underwear. ((:

The Letter V
What's the worst veggie?: BITTER GOURD
Where do you want to go on vacation?: I wanna go to, the north pole, and stay there.

The Letter W
What's your worst habit?: ERR, TALKING TO MUCH AND INCONSIDERATE.
Where do you live?: The silly little small place called SINGAPORE
What's your worst fear?: Being Alone.

The Letter X
Have you ever had an x-ray?: YESH. (:
Do you own a xylophone?: hell, are those little kids one counted?

The Letter Y
Do you like the color yellow?: YESH
What's one thing you yearn for?: mmhmmm, you think. (:

The Letter Z
Whats your zodiac sign?: THAT LITTLE DOGGY. (((:
Do you believe in the zodiac?: KINDA.
Favorite zoo animal?: The, err, Well, I like the butterflies. ((:

uhhuh,

carcrash.

HARRIET

When will you finally see that I cannot cannot CANNOT, think for myself. HUH?
When will you!
I want it to be now. Now. Now. Now.
I wish.
Pushing that knife through my heart.

I, Harriet, Have made too many promises.
That will be very difficult to keep.
Sigh. Shit. Sigh. )):

But I promised, and I will keep it.
I will.

Maybe I should just stop deluding myself,
HARRIET

Blogskin change. AGAIN. Lol.

you never give a damned thing honey but i cried, cried for you.

And she exclaims with the sound of laughter in the background,
"You're the only thing that i ever noticed properly"
Right. HAHA. ((: Weird phrase.

A for History, Lit and Math. I want one for Science too. PLEASEPLEASEPLEASE.

PLEASEPLEASEPLEASEPLEASE.

the rain pours down against the windows, and i think
'what could be worse than today?'
Then i realise the answer.
'everyday'

THE STUPID CAR STOPPED AGAIN. WTH. HOW COULD IT. I WAS SO CLOSE.

I will NOT feel guilty.
I will NOT.

And she leaves in silence,
HARRIET

Im sleepy shit.
My mum told me off for sleeping later than 11pm.
Right.
Haha.
I think she only scolded me because i was using the computer.
BUT WHATEVER. (((:

I don't wanna see another day. (((:

and its only because of guilt that i do see another day.

What am i? Zoey loh's amazing handwriting reader ah! Hmpf. Haha, Pearlyn keeps asking me. Lol. AND AMAZINGLY, I CAN ACTUALLY READ IT. Huh.

PEARLYN: Haha, back here arent i? ((:
SUETYI: HAHA, FIVE FINGERED SHAME . ((:
ZOEY: Changed back! ((:

HARRIET

HANRU AND MY LAME CONVERSATION. A MUST READ! (((:
BOLD WORDS IS HANRU. (:

(6:48 PM) And sing me that: Hello! I'm bored shit!
(6:49 PM) never ending jou: AWWWWWWWW!
(6:49 PM) never ending jou: i can be yr clown and entertain you
(6:49 PM) never ending jou: haha
(6:49 PM) And sing me that: OKAY
(6:50 PM) And sing me that: (((:
(6:50 PM) never ending jou: haha but this clown sucks
(6:50 PM) never ending jou: dont know how to entertain ppl. haha
(6:50 PM) And sing me that: I realise
(6:50 PM) And sing me that: ((((:
(6:50 PM) never ending jou: HAHA
(6:50 PM) And sing me that: (((((:
(6:50 PM) never ending jou: ermerm
(6:50 PM) never ending jou: LALALALALA
(6:50 PM) And sing me that: SILLY CLOWN
(6:50 PM) never ending jou: * im singing*
(6:50 PM) And sing me that: VERY ENTERTAINING
(6:50 PM) And sing me that: (((:
(6:51 PM) never ending jou: yes i know
(6:51 PM) never ending jou: im taking out a toy now
(6:51 PM) And sing me that: I see,
(6:51 PM) And sing me that: Where's the red nose?
(6:51 PM) never ending jou: *poof* it disappeared!
(6:51 PM) And sing me that: AW MAN
(6:51 PM) And sing me that: HARRIET LIKES RED NOSES
(6:51 PM) never ending jou: dont worry! its just behind yr ears!
(6:52 PM) And sing me that: OH
(6:52 PM) And sing me that: HAHAHA
(6:52 PM) And sing me that: I see it now
(6:52 PM) never ending jou: SEE! I JUST TOOK IT FRM YR EAR!
(6:52 PM) never ending jou: HAHAH
(6:52 PM) And sing me that: AMAZING! ((((:
(6:52 PM) never ending jou: HAHAHA
(6:52 PM) And sing me that: VERY SMART
(6:52 PM) never ending jou: I THINK I SHOULD CHANGE JOB TO MAICIAN
(6:52 PM) never ending jou: MAGICIAN*
(6:52 PM) And sing me that: YESYES,
(6:53 PM) And sing me that: AMAZING
(6:53 PM) never ending jou: hahha
(6:53 PM) And sing me that: I WILL BE YOUR BEST CUSTOMER
(6:53 PM) never ending jou: haha
(6:53 PM) never ending jou: yeahhh!
(6:53 PM) And sing me that: ((((((((((((:
(6:54 PM) never ending jou: you are the only one who is amazed by my lame tricks! (6:54 PM) And sing me that: I'm such a nice person. ((((:
(6:54 PM) And sing me that: HAHAH, ((: Yesyes roo, So amazing and lame
(6:54 PM) never ending jou: heheeeeeeeeeee
(6:54 PM) And sing me that: THE OH SO AMAZING AND LAME HANRU
(6:54 PM) And sing me that: HAHAH
(6:54 PM) never ending jou: DO I GET A PRIZEE?
(6:54 PM) And sing me that: That's your magician name!
(6:55 PM) And sing me that: No prize
(6:55 PM) never ending jou: for being lame
(6:55 PM) And sing me that: (((:
(6:55 PM) never ending jou: aw man!
(6:55 PM) never ending jou: den i quit!1
(6:55 PM) And sing me that: I'M LAMER!
(6:55 PM) And sing me that: ((:
(6:55 PM) And sing me that: you get a prize for entertaining me
(6:55 PM) And sing me that: ((:
(6:55 PM) And sing me that: Its also called ten cents
(6:55 PM) never ending jou: OH REALLY!
(6:55 PM) never ending jou: you are giving me ten cents?
(6:55 PM) never ending jou: YAY!
(6:55 PM) And sing me that: YES
(6:55 PM) And sing me that: ((:
(6:56 PM) never ending jou: YAY! keep to yr promise!
(6:56 PM) And sing me that: Remind me tomorrow !
(6:56 PM) never ending jou: remind me to remind you tmr!
(6:57 PM) And sing me that: HAHA,
(6:57 PM) And sing me that: But i don't remember!
(6:57 PM) never ending jou: YOU WILL!
(6:58 PM) never ending jou: i just gave u a special ability to rmb that
(6:58 PM) And sing me that: HAHAH
(6:58 PM) And sing me that: Finefine. ((:
(6:58 PM) never ending jou: heheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
(6:58 PM) And sing me that: (((((((((((:
(6:58 PM) And sing me that: SEE MY DN
(6:58 PM) And sing me that: IMMA NICE FRIEND
(6:59 PM) never ending jou: HAHAHAH
(6:59 PM) never ending jou: I KNOW IM AMAZING LAH
(6:59 PM) never ending jou: and im lame even though i can walk. SO PRO RIGHTTT!
(6:59 PM) And sing me that: HAHAH. SO LAME LAH YOU. (((:
(6:59 PM) never ending jou: SO LAMB!
(6:59 PM) never ending jou: BAA BAA
(7:00 PM) And sing me that: YES, Hanru the amazing LAMB -BAA-
(7:00 PM) never ending jou: BAABAA BlACK SHEEP HAVE U ANY WOOL????
(7:00 PM) And sing me that: YES SIR YES SIR, THREE BAGS FULLLLLL
(7:00 PM) And sing me that: ((:
(7:01 PM) never ending jou: WOAHHH. SO MUCH
(7:01 PM) never ending jou: WHO IS IT FOR?
(7:01 PM) And sing me that: ME AND ME AND ME! later cold how? (((:
(7:02 PM) never ending jou: HAHA PUT BLANKET CAN ALREADY LAH!
(7:02 PM) never ending jou: 3 layers of wool will make u sweat like shitttttttttt
(7:03 PM) And sing me that: UHHH, I THINK SINGAPORE IS A COLD COLD COUNTRY. ((: I like Air-Con too
(7:04 PM) never ending jou: hahahha
(7:04 PM) never ending jou: singapore is cold?
(7:04 PM) never ending jou: OMG
(7:04 PM) And sing me that: YES
(7:04 PM) never ending jou: YOU GOT PROBLEM
(7:04 PM) And sing me that: No,
(7:04 PM) And sing me that: YOU HAVE THE PROBLEM@
(7:04 PM) And sing me that: !
(7:04 PM) And sing me that: I'm shivering now!
(7:04 PM) And sing me that:
(7:04 PM) never ending jou:
(7:04 PM) never ending jou: OMGOMG
(7:04 PM) never ending jou: i think you should go hospital
(7:04 PM) never ending jou: NOWWWWWW!
(7:04 PM) never ending jou: CALL 995!
(7:05 PM) And sing me that: Oh no! I cannot. Hospital doesn't allow Sheeps to go in
(7:05 PM) never ending jou: oh yeah :/
(7:05 PM) never ending jou: OMG
(7:06 PM) never ending jou: GO TO BAAPITAL!
(7:06 PM) And sing me that: Yes! I shall! Do you know what bus goes there?
(7:07 PM) never ending jou: ermm
(7:07 PM) never ending jou: 211!
(7:08 PM) And sing me that: Which stop to take to! I don't know! And do they have that special place for sheeps on that bus?
(7:08 PM) And sing me that:
(7:09 PM) never ending jou: ohoh AIYA'
(7:09 PM) never ending jou: TAKE BAATAXIIIII LAH
(7:09 PM) And sing me that: OH YEAH. I FORGOT ABOUT THAT. ((: I shall. But no Baamoney. )))): HOW?
(7:09 PM) And sing me that: I got the Baa-link card only!
(7:09 PM) And sing me that: Can take MRT and Bus
(7:10 PM) And sing me that: How!
(7:10 PM) never ending jou: ERRRRRRRr
(7:11 PM) never ending jou: NONO BAATAXI HAVE SPECIAL SERVICE
(7:11 PM) never ending jou: CAN USE BAA-LINK CARD TO PAY ALSO
(7:11 PM) And sing me that: OH REALLY!
(7:11 PM) And sing me that: how much
(7:11 PM) And sing me that: !
(7:11 PM) And sing me that: I only $1 inside!
(7:12 PM) never ending jou: ERM SPECIAL DISCOUNT!
(7:12 PM) never ending jou: 50 CENTS ONLY!
(7:12 PM) never ending jou: 50 BAACENTS **
(7:13 PM) And sing me that: WAHH
(7:13 PM) And sing me that: SO CHEAP
(7:13 PM) And sing me that: Can take once . then take home again!
(7:14 PM) never ending jou: ERr YEAHHH!
(7:14 PM) never ending jou: SO GOOD RIGHT!
(7:14 PM) never ending jou: so being a sheep is cool man!
(7:14 PM) never ending jou: i mean LAMB!
(7:15 PM) And sing me that: YES
(7:16 PM) And sing me that: AND WE ARE THE COOLEST
(7:16 PM) And sing me that: (((:
(7:16 PM) never ending jou: HAAHA YEAPPP!
(7:16 PM) never ending jou: we are the COOL LAMBS!
(7:18 PM) And sing me that: YES WE ARE. (((:
(7:18 PM) never ending jou: HEHE
(7:18 PM) never ending jou: YAYYY!
(7:18 PM) And sing me that: we're the only two!
(7:19 PM) never ending jou: HAHA YEAP!
(7:19 PM) never ending jou: we are special
(7:19 PM) And sing me that: I'm special-er then you!
(7:19 PM) never ending jou: EHHHH
(7:19 PM) never ending jou: NO LOR
(7:19 PM) never ending jou: hhaha
(7:19 PM) And sing me that: yes lor! ((:
(7:19 PM) And sing me that: Ask Many people!
(7:20 PM) never ending jou: BLEAGHGHGHGHGHG
(7:20 PM) And sing me that: Tomorrow we ask Pearlyn and Verity okay!
(7:20 PM) And sing me that: HAHAHA
(7:20 PM) never ending jou: HAHAH OK!
(7:21 PM) And sing me that:
(7:21 PM) never ending jou: BUT WE CAN BE EQUAL LAH!
(7:21 PM) And sing me that: Okay! ((:
(7:21 PM) And sing me that: HELLO EQUAL LAMB. (:
(7:21 PM) never ending jou: yeapppp heheeeeeee
(7:21 PM) never ending jou: HELLO EQUAL LAMB!
(7:21 PM) never ending jou: rmb we have special privilege when we take BAATAXI! ;D
(7:22 PM) And sing me that: Yes! and have special Baapital!
(7:23 PM) never ending jou: HAHA YEAP!
(7:23 PM) never ending jou: so if we sick or what right, dont need to go clinic queue!
(7:23 PM) never ending jou: we got BAAPITAL for the two of us only ;D
(7:23 PM) And sing me that: YEAH LOR. We're better than the rest!
(7:24 PM) never ending jou: haha yeapppp ;D
(7:25 PM) And sing me that: ((:
(7:25 PM) never ending jou: WHEEE
(7:26 PM) never ending jou: WE,THE SPECIAL LAMBS OF 2C1, PLEDGE THAT WE WILL ALWAYS REMAIN LAME.
(7:26 PM) And sing me that: LET'S SAY IT TOGETHER!
(7:26 PM) And sing me that: (((:
(7:27 PM) never ending jou: HAHA OK
(7:27 PM) never ending jou: WE
(7:27 PM) And sing me that: WE
(7:28 PM) never ending jou: THE SPECIAL LAMBS FROM 2C1
(7:28 PM) And sing me that: THE SPECIAL LAMBS FROM 2C1
(7:28 PM) never ending jou: PLEDGE THAT
(7:28 PM) And sing me that: PLEDGE THAT

(7:29 PM) never ending jou: WE WILL ALWAYS BE LAME
(7:29 PM) And sing me that: WE WILL ALWAYS REMAIN LAME.
(7:29 PM) And sing me that: ((((((((((((:
(7:30 PM) never ending jou: YAYYYY!
(7:30 PM) never ending jou: hahahha
(7:30 PM) And sing me that: We must say this everyday
(7:30 PM) never ending jou: HAHA YEAPP! OK!
(7:30 PM) never ending jou: dont forget!
(7:31 PM) And sing me that: YES! tomorrow morning!
(7:31 PM) never ending jou: HAHA OK!
(7:31 PM) And sing me that: When people say the national pledge
(7:31 PM) And sing me that: WE SAY OUR OWN
(7:31 PM) And sing me that: HAHAHHA
(7:31 PM) never ending jou: HAHAHAHAH
(7:32 PM) never ending jou: WHEE
(7:32 PM) And sing me that:
(7:32 PM) never ending jou: but ours like vert short :/ (7:32 PM) never ending jou: very*
(7:33 PM) And sing me that: YEAH
(7:33 PM) And sing me that: never mind
(7:33 PM) And sing me that: EASIER TO SAY
(7:34 PM) never ending jou: HAHA OK
(7:36 PM) And sing me that: WE ARE LUCKIER
(7:37 PM) And sing me that: AND MUST MAKE BAA ANTHEM
(7:37 PM) never ending jou: OHOH AHHAHA
7:37 PM) never ending jou: YOU MAKE LAH
(7:38 PM) never ending jou: eh what abt BAABAA BLACK SHEEP song?
(7:38 PM) And sing me that: OH YEAH
(7:38 PM) And sing me that: ALREADY MADE FOR US!
(7:38 PM) And sing me that: hahha
(7:38 PM) And sing me that: How about FLAG
(7:39 PM) never ending jou: HAHA ERR
(7:39 PM) And sing me that: i draw
(7:39 PM) never ending jou: YOU DRAW
(7:39 PM) never ending jou: haha
(7:40 PM) And sing me that: -DREW A SHEEP HERE-
(7:40 PM) And sing me that: ugly sheep
(7:40 PM) never ending jou: HAHAH!
(7:40 PM) never ending jou: THATS COOL!
(7:40 PM) never ending jou: hahah but must draw on paper!
(7:40 PM) never ending jou: den cut out
(7:40 PM) And sing me that: let me find picture!
(7:40 PM) And sing me that: HAHA
(7:40 PM) never ending jou: haha ok
(7:42 PM) And sing me that: Initiated a file transfer
(7:43 PM) And sing me that: Initiated a file transfer
(7:42 PM) Transfer of "SHEEP.jpg" is complete.
(7:42 PM) And sing me that: HAVE TWO
(7:42 PM) Transfer of "SHEEP2.jpg" is complete.
(7:42 PM) And sing me that: choose one!
(7:43 PM) never ending jou: haha 1st one?
(7:43 PM) And sing me that: OKAY!
(7:43 PM) never ending jou: YAY!
(7:44 PM) And sing me that: Let's look at my display picture
(7:44 PM) And sing me that: and sing our anthem
(7:45 PM) never ending jou: haha
(7:45 PM) And sing me that: Haha, Okay!
(7:45 PM) And sing me that: OUR ANTHEM
(7:45 PM) And sing me that: BAABAA BLACK SHEEP, HAVE YOU ANY EOOL
(7:45 PM) And sing me that: *WOOL
7:45 PM) never ending jou: BAABAA BLACK SHEEP
(7:45 PM) And sing me that: HEHEHE
(7:46 PM) And sing me that: -ahem- (name removed to make sure no Serious Offence):' NEVER SING LOUD ENOUGH!'
(7:46 PM) never ending jou: YES SIR YES SIR THREE BAGS FULL
(7:46 PM) never ending jou: HAHA
(7:46 PM) And sing me that: ONE FOR MY MASTER
(7:47 PM) never ending jou: ONE FOR MY ???
(7:47 PM) never ending jou: ahh forgot :/
(7:47 PM) And sing me that: I ALSO. haha
(7:47 PM) And sing me that: i only know the last word is
(7:47 PM) And sing me that: 'LANE'
(7:47 PM) And sing me that: hahah
(7:47 PM) never ending jou: hahaha
(7:47 PM) never ending jou: oh man

(7:47 PM) never ending jou: howw
(7:47 PM) And sing me that: We forgot our anthem
(7:47 PM) And sing me that: NEVER MIND
(7:47 PM) And sing me that: later then ask others!


HAHAH,DID WE EVER LEARN OUR OWN ANTHEM? Tune in next time!

THE BAA NATIONAL FLAG. ((:



THE EQUAL SHEEPS ROCK. HAHAH

The day, ended with the sun setting.
With me crying.
With you thinking.

The day, started instead with the sun rising.
With me smiling.
With you wishing.

The day, went through drastic changes,
The sun went from east to west
That silent ache in my heart,
Just went from bearable to a Killing pain

I don't see
How i could have thought that,
I could see what was coming?

That day, in February.
That day, that i wish didn't happen.
That day, I should have gone home.
That day, Where my regrets just keep coming to me.
That day, its your fault.
That day,

I wish,

When was i gonna finally realise, that i was wrong all along.
That i could never belong.

When am i ever,
gonna care,
gonna see,
gonna tell you,,
gonna listen to my heart.

What made me think i was gonna be okay.
That's impossible.

HARRIET

AHHHHHHH. Your voice is in my head. and its not going away. IRRITATING SHIT. To hear YOUR voice. MAN. ITS LIKE I'M TRAPPED IN SOME STUPID TIME ZONE WHERE YOU'RE REPEATING EVERYTHING. I shall not comment.

I AM NOT MOVING TO XANGA. anyone who is bril and already RELINKED, please link back to THIS.

CRAP. HEADACHE.

Okay, that's all.

got this from Bin squared 's blog. Have never been there, yet i read this:
I've got a mind boggling, sense numbing,
heart pounding, stomach flipping,
take-my-breath-away, head-over-heels,
knee shaking, daydreaming,
butterfly fluttering crush on you.


so nice.
Haha, really.

Oh, what a shame. What a rainy ending given to a perfect day.

I'm amazed how many people have so much power over me.
THANKGOD only one person knows how to use it against me.
THANKGOD. Otherwise, i'll be a slave by now man.

Ahh, stupid CS homework.
Sigh. I'm at a complete lost on Flash. I need to LISTEN to her step by step to get it right. SIGH. Howhowhow?

You do what you want cos i'm not what you wanted.

Did i mention, there are some things that i never want to hear again?

MAN. Seriously. i never ever wanna hear them again. ))):

In love with Liz, are we?

HAHA, no one gets that other than two people i realised. and i can't tell anyone.
SIGH.
Haha,

Stupid thing called guilt.

And she promised not to throw or tell,
WTH?
HARRIET

Fever's back up. I swear. I can feel the heat just pouring out of me!
And runny nose, sore throat adn that stupidstupid headache. Plus i'm having cramps. SHIT. I'm in pain and i'm dying man.
I wanna get better. )))))))):

Stupid Carbon Cycle Game that Mr T ask us to go to. HAHAH. Tried to play it, so random and stupid that game.

I think I'm in denial. In denial that i suck. (thankyouverymuch for telling me though)
But YEAH.

sleepy shit.

Klare: HELLOHELLOHELLO! (((:
PEARLYN: HUH? The hearts, somehow they disappeared. Will put them back kay? ((:
KRYSTAL: HELLO! ((:
DENISE: HAHA, OKAYOKAY. ((:

And She will fall asleep on the table,
HARRIET

Everything is just so depressing nowadays. And i don't even know why. The morning sky shines through when the sunlight hits the clouds. yet, i dont even notice its Nice-ness or anything. i see nothing.
I used to be able to plan my future. And everything was going perfectly well, Till i reached Crescent. Now everything has gone crazy. And i can't fix a crap out of it.
I told Lyn i missed being part of 'that'. I knew i was speaking the truth. Every now and then. I look at 'that' and i wonder why i wasn't anymore. I knew it was reasons that In the end, i would still be out. But i miss the things that i saw. I missed the people. And i couldn't think of a better reason to care. )): Of course i love this now, more than 'that'. But regrets still rush past me all the time.
I used to care about what was happening around me more than i cared for myself. Now i've given up caring. At all.
I woke up with a major headache. I was thinking the whole night. Couldn't sleep at all.
Sometimes i feel like no one understands. There's this constant throbbing in my head nowadays. All the time actually. I find it very irritating.

The smiles seem fake. Since Wednesday night. I still can't remember what happened on Wednesday night that unlocked those memories. Maybe is shouldn't go and try to remember.
See this smiley '(:' that i've been doing since Thursday? And i stopped using ';D'. To me, The first smile seems weirdly faker than the other. I don't know why. But i've gotta get that sleep.
Sleep Harriet, Go to sleep.

That five minutes sleep during the Science test yesterday, was the best i've had for ages. Even better than that 2 hour nap the other time. Because i felt like i'd accomplished something. And that i could LIVE. Yet, now i'm too freaked to sleep in class. I suck. I'm such a freaking coward to find that reason creepy enough not to sleep in class, HARRIET SHALL SLEEP FAR AWAY FROM HER SEAT, (((: that should be good for me eh? (: And i won't feel freaked out. (:

I don't get History 'Usefulness' format. SHITSHITSHIT. )):
I've got a runny nose and sore throat after crying.
Yeapps.
I should go get my sleep.
Or some candy to get me awake. RIGHT?

I didn't know what to say to the words that i heard. They weren't spoken to me, and i didn't wanna let you know i was eavesdropping. That would have been rude. ahem, like Christy i might add I didn't see you go, and i knew it was me, that had proven so wrong after all this time. When were you even planning on telling me, Or never ever? That i should be in the dark for so long sounds so stupid when all the signs were there. And there was no need for me to smile at you because they were all fake. but this time, its me who's faking. Because i'm not gonna let you know that i know what you talked about.

You don't deserve that. You deserve privacy. Just like everyone else.

Have you ever felt like you were the odd one out? And everything is just so perfect compared to you? Well, That's what i feel now.

And she doesn't have a future,
HARRIET

I was thinking. Just thinking.
Went home myself again today.

Haha, Was kinda BORING. but all the while, Interesting.
Crossing the road was FUN again. (like yesterday;D)
I made myself cross the whole thing. Although when i reached the other end, i had this urge to run back and stand in the middle of the road. But i stopped my self from doing that too! i'm getting better at this day by day okay! (:

I've been singing 'I can wait forever' for the pass five minutes.
Haha, Why oh why?

I'm dying to sleep again.
SLEEPY SHIT. (:

BUT NO, I WILL STUDY, AT LEAST A LITTLE. :D

I WILL!

HARRIET

MUAHAHA, HISTORY NOW.

Many things:
1. I WAS NEARLY LATE TODAY (first time)
2. I can't find ANY of my Math books (other than the one Christy returned to me today) SHIT.
3. I think i agreed to something last night. but now i can't remember what the hell it is
4. Gonna fail science test
5. DIEDIEDIE.
6. I'm going NUTS. (:


(((((((((((((((((:
Haha, SMILEY FACES. ((((:

I'm wondering what I'm thinking. (:
History.
Hmm, i should go further into my brain. (:
Oh and, i hit my head on the wall last night! ))):
PAIN. AND I THINK THERE'S A HUGE LUMP THING. )))))))))):

I'm feeling Sticky. Yucks. Sweat?
EWEWEW. Yuck. (: HAHAHA.
I also have a major headache.
AHHHH. (:

"what's the problem with brothels and gambling dens? (or sometihng like that)"
"they're addictive' ERRRRR
RIGHT. Brothels are Addictive. UHHUH. HAHAH.

SLEEPY.
I wanted Mass Run, But then it rained,
Thus, THERE WAS NO MASS RUN. )))))))))))):
that's horrible. First time i want Mass Run, and it rains.
BLAH.

))))))))))))):
'Help me fly to the sky with you by my side'
Let me stay in your arms to hear your heart beating.

And Mr T (history) is a nice teacher, (:
HARRIET

I feel full.
Although there is only SOUP in my stomach.
RIGHT.

I hate this.

I can't think straight.

I just nearly fainted today.

And i nearly Died.

What's up with today.

I think i'll just die.

Yuck.

Even an A2 for history CA ain't making her any happier.
Although i would wanna know the highest mark.
Bet that i'm FAR from her.
BLAH

And she wants to know when you're coming to save her,
HARRIET

I NEED A HUG!!!

I don't know what to do,
The pain is undeniable.
And yet i don't know what's causing it.
It hurts.
AHHHHHHHHHHH!
I really can't see why this is happening.
i don't want it to.

Makes me feel hopelessly lost.
You know the distance from the bus stop to my house isn't really FAR.
And the longest anyone can take is only 10 minutes (at most)
Today i took 25 minutes.
I stared up at the buildings.
The sun was hitting them at this amazing way.
All i could feel was so left out.
They were beautiful,
And so was the world.
Yet i was the odd one out.
AND THAT HURT MORE.

I feel like a rain cloud is hovering over me.
Drenching me in a ever flowing pour of bad memories.
That was all i could think about today.
It really feels like someone unlocked it
But i don't know who or why.
It makes no sense to me.

Everyone, i tell everyone that i'm tired.
And others see that too.
The eyebags under my eyes.
Haha, Well,
I thought about it.
Could i really sleep if given the chance?
No i couldn't.
The 'need' for sleep was once again only another
Survival Instinct.
Just like protecting myself from harm is.
But I'm lousy at protecting myself.
The memories that pour out seem to painful.
Reliving them all in my mind. AGAIN.
Once again.
Once was enough. Twice,
I can't stand twice.
And yet, here i am,
Living through it all.
Why is it so difficult?

This ain't no emo post.
This is what i feel.
That rain cloud has got to go.

Now.


I just bathed about 10 minutes ago
When i finished dressing. That was when i realised that i was dressed for a nice time out cycling.
Maybe that's what i need

i hope.

All i see is the magic place i wanna be in.
I really don't know what to do no more.
All i feel is that i wanna be closer, to you maybe
I can't feel anything else
All i know is, I'm lost
And maybe hopelessly unloved
I'm an idiot. Period.
What should i do about it.

Make the pain stop,
Will someone?
Anyone?
PLEASE.

As i was walking home, That 25 minute walk.
As i was crossing the road.
I walked so slowly.
And i didn't know what happened.
But i stopped walking halfway through.
And i couldn't move anymore.
I saw that car coming.
It was speeding, hell.
Finally, at the last moment,
My heart listened to my head.
Otherwise,
I won't be alive.
This is the closest i've ever been to actually hurting myself on PURPOSE.

What the hell.

Harriet shall not think.

And she's not tired.
She just wants this time alone.

And she can't see,
HARRIET

Bad memories scream in my head. And it hurts more the second time. I feel like i'm reliving everything. And i don't know why! They were locked up in that space in my head. Made me forget.
Yet, all of a sudden, They were unlocked yesterday, i don't know why.
But they were. AND I DON'T I CAN STAND THIS. It hurts.
The thoughts are continuous. The lone tear will fall down my face. And i can't see what else i can do.
Because living through evrything together a second time is horrible.

My head hurts.

If i fail this test, i swear i'll cry.

My heart stops beating

I don't see how i'll pass.

My legs feel numb.

I don't see my future no more, i've stopped planning.

I can't breathe.

I think i'm drowning. in my worries.
i think i need the help. I'm serious.
My mother doesn't see the tears that run.
And neither does anyone else.
I don't want them to.
But now, i don't think i can stay here in the dark.
THE BAD MEMORIES ARE ALL IN MY HEAD. AND IT HURTSHURTSHURTS.
i think i'm gonna screamscreamscream.

Its history now.
i shall not scream.
i shall scream in my head.
and let the memories flow.

And she can't see anything else,
HARRIET

Well, TODAY WAS FUN. HAHA. FUNNY> ;D

Suet and 'Amanda' came over. ;D HAHA. VERY FUNNY. ;D
I got icytower AMAZINGs in both their tablets. PFFTT.
AND NOT ON MINE. ):
WELL, THE WAY THEY MADE THE PLANT. Hell, that was hilarious.
And my sister thinks Zoey has an AWFUL sense of smell. HAHA

Gotta say i'm real sleepy.
REAL SLEEPY.
Tomorrow no test.
Thankgod.

;D

Simmie says she doesn't like THAT PERSON. And well, THAT PERSON may be a little irritating and Ego, i think she's fine. BUT SIMMIE DOESN'T! and Sim wanted me to blog for her! LOL. ;D

Aricia; HELLO YOU. Aiyah. i give up ever thinking i can beat you in chinese. ;D
Evangeline; HAHA, FINEFINE. ;D First time i got so close to you! ;D
Pearlyn; OKAYOKAY. Hold, will do that noww.

And i felt horrible, just thinking, i'm sorry i'm not perfect. And i don't know what else to do.
Perfect grades, Perfect look, Perfect. But that's what i can't be!
And to another person, i've given up. I can't think about anything else that you sayyyy. BECAUSE MOST OF IT HURTS. IRRITATED SHIT. )))));

And she's damned tired,
HARRIET

Today was awesomely Weird Okay!. ;D

Let's start with the morning. YES. There was this LONG LONG talk by the Principal. And guess what everyone thought of it. PFFT. I can't understand why she can't be like Mr Koh, Who actually got the point across in FIVE sentences.;D This longlong talk just makes us wanna SLEEPPP. PFFT. so irritating.

THEN IT WAS LITERATURE. ERRR, I have no idea what happened during Lit, Seeing as i was reading.

I WAS READING TWILIGHT! And i have a majormajor Crush on Edward (again) since i read Twilight (again). AHHHHH!!!! EDWARD <3<3<3<3 !!!!!!! (Pearlyn'd agree)

Was STILL reading Twilight during Science (a bit too obviously) BUT WHATEVER. seeing as Mr Teo didn't say anything. ;D

RECESS; STILL reading Twilight! ;D Went with Pearlyn to the Piano. NICE. was reading while Lyn Played. ;D BEAUTIFUL. Then some IDIOT came over and wanted the Piano. So we went to the See- Saw. YEAH. And we sat one person each side. ;D FUNFUNFUN.
Haha, All this time still reading. I'M AMAZED THAT I DIDN'T HIT ANYTHING! ;D

Next, English. Since the teacher is still on course, WE GOT THE FREE PERIOD. Guess what i was doing; READING TWILIGHT. HAHAH! ;D

Chinese; I GOT 70 FOR CHINESE TEST!!! A2! Cheer! ;D I IMPROVED! ;D SMILES. ;D

Assembly. HAHAH, Suet and I ended up sleeping the through the whole thing. Haha. NICE. but my leg went numb.

'you're beautiful, every little piece love'

Well, Here's where the weird part comes in. SUET AND I WERE IN THE MRT AND WE SAW THIS TWO PEOPLE. Well, the first thing that made us look was PDA (Public Display of Affection). We were looking and we realised that (Actually, I realised) the one that looked like a 'guy', err, had slender hands and a shoulder bag and long hair. WTH. so Suet went to a side to look at the face, GOD, GIRL. And the voice was Girl. HELL, GAYGAYGAY. GAYGAYGAY! YUCKYYUCKY.YUCKSYUCKS. And they were smacking each other BUTTS. YUCKSYUCKSYUCKS. -outta my head please!- EWEWEWEWWWEEEEEE. I swear i wouldn't have noticed that the person looked like a girl if i wasn't in a school WHERE THERE ARE GAY PEOPLE. I SWEAR. And not to mention i have a gay friend. BUT WHATEVER. EWEWEWEWEEEEE YUCKY. BLAH.

Join the band, make me smile. Drink a little, see me in your dreams.
You make me smile everytime i see you. AND THAT'S NO EASY FEAT.
so i congratulate you.
But, Harriet will get through this alone, WITHOUT YOU.

HAHA, came home and ate a little. ;D i feel fulllll.

PICTURES HAVE BEEN REMOVED BECAUSE PEARLYN SAID SO.

"The Outside"

I didn't know what I would find
When I went looking for a reason, I know
I didn't read between the lines
And, baby, I've got nowhere to go
I tried to take the road less traveled by
But nothing seems to work the first few times
Am I right?

[Chorus:]

So how can I ever try to be better?
Nobody ever lets me in
I can still see you, this ain't the best view
On the outside looking in
I've been a lot of lonely places
I've never been on the outside

You saw me there, but never knew
I would give it all up to be
A part of this, a part of you
And now it's all too late so you see
You could've helped if you had wanted to
But no one notices until it's too
Late to do anything

[Repeat Chorus]

So how can I ever try to be better?
Nobody ever lets me in
I can still see you, this ain't the best view
On the outside looking in
I've been a lot of lonely places
I've never been on the outside


And she's still on the outside,
HARRIET

Tired shit.
My Little Sister puked today!
YEAH! (Like me!)
Point: She's most probably not going to school tomorrow.
RIGHTRIGHT. and Harriet goes everyday
SOMEONE TELL ME HOW THAT'S FAIR.
Sigh, Harriet will stop Complaining now. ;D

And she will mention how nice her Dinner was. (because she ate!)
Haha,Yeah. I had this Potato thing.nicenice. ;D
Grapes for dessert. YAYE.
Delish.
;D
SMILES.
But i'm real FULL now.
COMPLAINING AGAIN. haha. Ah well,

I should go do chinese now. MY YUMMY DINNER AND LUNCH (soya ice cream) IS STILL IN MY STOMACH.
I really should go see a doctor about my eating habits. HMMM.
Ah well, no one should worry, seeing as i'm not at all! HAHAH.

And she will not see you no more,
HARRIET

I'm seriously thinking of sleeping now. :D

BUT I CAN'T

SO YEAH.

Sadly

i forgot what i wanted to post about. HAHA
Oh YEAH

in the MRT today, Sim and Me talked about two people!
One's 'going the wrong way in life'
The other's 'weirdly following us'. (anyone who wants to know who this is, JUST ASK ME!)
REALLY.
BUT IT WAS FEAKKAYEE
SCARY SHIT. ;D

BUT WE SURVIVED!

GO US SIM!

And she was extremely freaked,
HARRIET

HAHAH, now its English. ;D

YAYE. anyway, THAKNYOU SILLY IDIOT/ SUCKER FOR THE SONGS! ;D

HAHA, Anyway, She's gonna have to change her name to Amamda! :D HAHAH.
This is gonna be hilarious.

ANYWAY, STUPID CHARLES CHEONG. MAKE MY CROOKED.
IDIOT. NOW I HAVE TO WEAR CONTACTS. PFFT. -angry-

HAHA. will make this real short, because Pearlyn can't catch up,
HEHE. Well, Who can? Please tell me if you can! ;D i'd be real AMAZED. ;D

THANK ME PEARLYN!

And she's BORED,1
HARRIET

What's the only reason Harriet can't think?
Not many please.

OH WAIT. THIS SONG IS BRILLIANT:
"Tied Together With A Smile"

Seems the only one who doesn't see your beauty
Is the face in the mirror looking back at you
You walk around here thinking you're not pretty
But that's not true, cause I know you...

[Chorus:]

Hold on, baby, you're losing it
The water's high, you're jumping into it
And letting go... and no one knows
That you cry, but you don't tell anyone
That you might not be the golden one
And you're tied together with a smile
But you're coming undone

I guess it's true that love was all you wanted
Cause you're giving it away like it's extra change
Hoping it will end up in his pocket
But he leaves you out like a penny in the rain
Oh, cause it's not his price to pay
Not his price to pay...

[Repeat Chorus]

You're tied together with a smile
But you're coming undone... oh
Goodbye, baby
Goodbye, baby
With a smile, baby, baby

And She sees only you,
HARRIET

You should have thought twice before you let it all go.

I'm not sure what i'm feeling now. Weirdly.
It's more of a "I'm sleepy, hyper and very hungry" at the same time. Haha.
Really. For the first time in ages, I'm hungry. (Unless you count right before Recess)

PICTURES WITH SHAKI AND SUET <3 (SO NICE!!)












Shaki says there are more! Can't wait!! ;D I MISS YOU SHAKI!
And the pictures are random i know.
;D

I'm gonna puke again.
Shall stop posting.

And apparently, she's not normal,
HARRIET

Oh my, Haha. So many things to study.
And i actually went to waste time to take a real nice nap. ;D
Haha.
Smiles.

Haha, real tired.
Even after sleeping for so long.
Die. So many chapters.
Harriet, you can do it!

OH! i read -ahem-'s blog just now! And i can't help but laugh. Because they were so irritating that i didn't LOG OFF. i Blocked them. Until i felt Mean. Because Harriet does not block unless she hates the person. (aka Bitch) ;D SO YEAH. LAUGHING NOW. ;D

"Should've Said No" Taylor Swift

It's strange to think the songs we used to sing
The smiles, the flowers, everything: is gone
Yesterday I found out about you
Even now just looking at you: feels wrong
You say that you'd take it all back, given one chance
It was a moment of weakness and you said yes...

[Chorus:]

You should've said no, you should've gone home
You should've thought twice before you let it all go
You should've know that word, bout what you did with her
Would get back to me...
And I should've been there, in the back of your mind
I shouldn't be asking myself why
You shouldn't be begging for forgiveness at my feet...
You should've said no, baby and you might still have me

You can see that I've been crying
And baby you know all the right things: to say
But do you honestly expect me to believe
We could ever be the same...
You say that the past is the past, you need one chance
It was a moment of weakness and you said yes...

[Repeat Chorus]

I can't resist... before you go, tell me this
Was it worth it...
Was she worth this...

No... no no no...

[Repeat Chorus]


Haha. Nice song. ;D

Great mood.

And she will study,
HARRIET

I've enough of Fighting. Enough. Of fighting for who i truly am.
If you don't wanna believe me, My word for it, Then just Shut Up. ;D
THANKYOU.
Because i am who i am and you or no one else is gonna change that.

I still remember that Suet and i had promised and pledged respectively to study on thursday. -AHEM- RIGHTRIGHT. We completely studied right suet and sim! ;D

HAHAH. We are so retarded. :D HAHA.

And i'm bringing awesome back, not bronte. HAHA

My hell, last night’s sleep was Magical. That’s the only word to describe it. Magical.
It was just brilliant. Yet, I don’t think that it will be happening again for about 25 days. Haha.
At least not until MYEs are over. I wish.
Oh maybe it wasn’t as Magical as the 2 hour nap I’d taken after the Internet went haywire.
And maybe I did have two nightmares.
But, I slept for 12 hours. 12 hours; that’s what I haven’t got in 2 months! Every day, the most is 6 hours.
Hell, that 12 is a two day sleep.
Magical.
The nightmares were scary though. They showed what I really didn’t want to lose.
My little sister was in that dream; she was dying in the dream. And in the end, I dreamt she disappeared.
I didn’t know what to do.
When I woke up, I quickly went over to her bed to make sure she was still there. I was that worried.
Hell. And I dreamt of many others. All leaving me, yet, I had no way of making them Stay! That was horrible.
That was the second nightmare. I woke up crying.
Thank God I went back to sleep.
I slept till 11 after that. –Cheers-
I felt so completely empty yet so alive at the same time.
The dreams made me think.
I did love, I did have feelings. Why was I wasting them on the wrong people?
WHY.
Today, I promise myself, I will not live my life for others.
Harriet will try to think for herself.
Will I ever make it?
Yes I will.
“Make a wish, Harriet”, that’s what my dad once asked at my Birthday when I was two.
I wished that I could be perfect.
Yet, I’m as imperfect as anyone could ever be.
Which makes me as perfect as I could ever want,
I was everything I could ever want.

Well, on something more… errr… Funny. Haha. My little sister, Joleen, well, during school, she was daydreaming. Muahaha. It runs in the family I see. ;D
The point is, she drew two hearts on her hand. (Like me, exactly ;D) And the hearts were joined together.
Now, the difference between me and my sister is that she let my Mum see the hearts.
And now my Mummy thinks that my sister is Crushing on someone and wants me to find out who it is. Lame shit!
Haha, well, of course she won’t tell me. And seeing as I’M not crushing on anyone, I don’t really remember what it felt like. Haha, so I can’t really help my lil’ sister. I just hope the guy she chose is cute man! Haha.
Or maybe she just drew the hearts out of boredom like I do.
Which I believe is true. Haha, because of all the shapes, heart and star are the nicest to draw on your hands. How many people draw a circle, triangle or square? Hahah!

Doing pretty well studying science yesterday. Cheer! I remembered something right! HAHA, hooray!
(well, at least I think I did) ;D Joy!

Gonna go eat Breakfast now! Although its nearly lunch time. Haha, whatever. I don’t even know why I’m Blogging. Must be to just make sure I remember the sleep. SIGH. ;D

And she’s Psychedelic,
HARRIET

HEART ATTACK.
Yeah. Hear attacks.

Why did I think that I could change the World?
Well, at least My World.
And yet, I've definitely done nothing but Ruin it.
Why though.
Why can't I do this right?
Why can't you believe that I can do this right?

The littlest things that make me go wild,
are also the things that I dislike the most.
That 'Wild-ness'.
Wth.
i could live without it.
I really could.
Yet, I choose not to.
Because I know I'll have to pay a price.
And that's something I don't want.

Nowadays, it feels weird to Think.

Haha. How will i cope?
I will. -I'm a strong girl-
But i won't live to see it gone;
will I?

PEARLYN; haha. yeah. -ahem- wouldn't miss you. fako. :D
ARICIA; HAHA. <3
SUETYI; HAHA. :D yeahyeah.
DENISE; HEY. :D yeah! i know i'm nice! :D HAHAH. :D

And this time, i give up on drinking water,
maybe i can die of thirst,
HARRIET

hahah. just got back.
my mummy's worried her hair is all dropping! (its true) so now she's worried she'll be bald.
seriously.
My mum's hair is damned Thick okay.

ANYWAY, harriet and suet yi are going to make lists!
which we promise that we are gonna complete by the weekend.
AND SO, Harriet and Suet Yi are hardworking people who will not complete these lists!

i'm sorry. i know i'm just horrible in ways.
and i know i'm not changing. amazingly. and it hurts to know.

but Harriet will change now.

And she promises to.

SHE WILL. (she hopes)

and, please, that Bitch, PLEASE, why can't you people just go awayyyyy.
because the way you're treating me and my friends is just not the way.
you just suck. a whole lot. and i can't think of any other better way to explain this.
BUT YOU ARE HORRIBLE.

haha. that's all.
better go make my list.

And she won't let you hear her cry,
Harriet

And to think that mask you wanted to hide behind
You should know that a mask will never be you
Because one day the curtains will go down
and the show will end

that punch in the stomach that stays

and the proof that i can't think stands still so true

Cross, cross, cross the road. if you wanna die just go!!!!! AHHHHHHHHHH.

right.

i really can't take any more nagging, stupid stuff and EVEN MORE HURT.
because it's already too far.
and i don't think i can care anymore.

Harriet will study hard and, Harriet will not bother about the stupid.
I feel horribly tired.
that zombie on autopilot.

TIREDTIRED, i am thinking of sleeping.
but now, Harriet will try to stay awake

"me like red ribbon!"

And she can't see anything no more,
HARRIET

Had a nice day. But I am so sleepy. AHHHHHHHHHHH.

I really can’t stand this.

Really.

I need sleep.

Well, had a nice time with sister and suet. :D haha.

We kinda talked for hours. And it was so nice. YEAH. :D

Haha. the truth. :D and the tears. And simmie’s nose bleed.

UHHUH.

And I realized something about my attention seeking. WHICH I KNOW IS THERE.

I realized that I am attention seeking because I don’t seem to get enough at home. AND NO ONE TELL ME THAT I’M JUST EXAGGERATING OKAY. Because the truth is right in front of me.

Money can’t buy love, yet I just and still do love. Amazing.

Thinking about it all now. It was just bril. To let it all go.

Yknow what, I think I’m gonna puke.

Scream.

Right.

Thankyou sim dear’s Mummy for driving me home. :D

SIMMIE GOT INTO LD. Cheer.

Sorry sim, now no energy to cheer.

Mybabydroppedtoday, BABYILOVEYOU.

I think I died. Yet, how can type?

Why are people fake? When they aren’t being true to themselves, what’s the point? Seeing as they won’t be happy. If you just ain’t cool, don’t act. If you’re a nerd, just be what you are. Its not so difficult. Be who you are. THEN YOU’LL JUST BE LOVED.

Harriet will chill.

HARRIET WILL CHILL

HARRIET WILL CHILL

HARRIET WILL CHILL

HARRIET WILL CHILL

OMH. i am hyper now!!!!!!!!!! have been promised my STARBUCKS FRAP. YAY!!!!!!!!!!! SCREAM!!!!!! WHOOHOO. i am happyyy. :D

CHEER. :D haha. I KNOW. BUT I'M STUDYING. :D

HAHAH. mr t talking about HIV yo. :D SO FUNNY. :D
since TIREDNESS is one of the symtoms,
"don't worry, when one day you feel TIRED, don't say 'AIYOH! i have aids!'"
AHAHA. SO STUPID. :D so funnaye. yeah. i feel tired. :D AND I DO NOT HAVE AIDS.

sleepless nights. when i wake up, the first thing i remember is HISTORY can. STUPID. :D
I AM SLEEPY.

yknow what! my mummy says i look rebellious. and lyn says i don't look like the kind of people who study. THUS, i forgive that stupidstupid sucker who effing feels guilty because i study. SEEING AS I LOOK LIKE I DON'T. sigh. PFFT. and if EVANGELINE was studying, NO ONE would care. PFFT. but yeah. i guess i do. and i guess this is jsut because my change of character yeah? I NEED TO PASS. my mummy thinks i'm mature-er than that SUCKER (:D) when i told her. MUAHAHAH. too bad. :D and lyn thinks it way unfair that I, Harriet, don't listen in any classes and yet do better than her. :D MUAHAHA. i study!! SEE. HARRIET MAY NOT LISTEN, BUT SHE STUDIES OKAY. yeah. so lyn and that SUCKER, please PUT IT INTO YOUR HEAD THAT IT IS NOT A VERY DIFFICULT TO BELIEVE THAT HARRIET IS STUDYING. :D

HHAHA. yeahyeahyeah. i am gonna not be bothered about things anymore. I PROMISE. i really do! i promise not to think anymore. :D

and i saw that people were right about me.
i'm a complete idiot at times. SIGH.
thankyouverymuch.
I AM AT RISK FOR (not aids; DUH) INSANITY. :D

oh and, suetyi, when did you become a BIMBO? huh?
"that's LIKE TOTALLY DUH"
seriously suet. :D HAHHAHA. LAUGHLAUGHLAUGH.
:D HEHEH.
anyway, i am HAPPILY UNHYPERLY SLEEPY. D: wth. :D

"no one in this world will go around wearing a t-shirt that says 'I AM HIV POSITIVE"
HAHHAHAHA. Mr T so funny can! :D HAHHAHA. so stupid. :D

PEARLYN; HAHA. I KNOW YOU'RE JEALOUS. :D :D HEHEH. and, not confirmed was told to me once. and it still happened.

ILOVEMYBABY.

And Harriet will listen in class,
HARRIET

I CAN’T TAKE THIS NO MORE.

I can’t. I can’t. I can’t. I CAN’T. really. I can’t. I JUST CAN’T.

MY HELL.

I’m gonna change to some Emo blogskin. Pfft.

I hope it’s a joke lyn. And I won’t kill you. I will seriously just stop crying. PLEASE TELL ME IT’S A JOKE. Not confirmed usually becomes confirmed.

REALLY. I CAN’T TAKE THIS. HAVE YOU SEEN THE CRAP I’M GOING THROUGH RIGHT NOW?
Stupid studies. And knowing that crappy PEOPLE think crap of ME. And and, EXAMS. OMH. I CAN’T TAKE THIS. I NEED TO GET AWAY FROM HERE. AND JUST DIE OR SOMETHING. WILL PEOPLE JUST GIVE ME THAT WISH?

REALLY. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. SCREAM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

I NEED TO GO TO SLEEP AND PRAY THAT THIS ‘LIFE’ I’M LIVING IS ALL A BAD DREAM.

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

I CAN’T THINK.

I’m crying so hard I can’t see.

REALLY. AND PEARLYN SAYS I CAN TELL ZOEY? TELL HER FOR WHAT. PFFFTTT.

I wanna sleep this thing off.

And its not happening.

The laughs all sound fake. They don’t sound like me.

That voice far away telling me to chill.

Make it shut up.

I wish it was all a dream.

The tests, the stress, the news from lyn. I WISH.

I wish so hard that I would give up everything material I have to get it all away.

PLEASE. JUST MAKE IT STOP. I CAN’T STAND THE CONTINUOUS POUNDING IN MY HEAD.

It started from this afternoon. Stupid zoey. AHH. Harriet can’t chill. THE POUNDING IS STILL THERE.

I think I’m gonna puke.

GO AWAY BAD DREAMS.

I’m so lost.

Harriet will try to stop crying. SHE WILL TRY.

Although she can’t right now.

Make it all just GO AWAY,

HARRIET