I need somewhere to rant all of a sudden. and this is my blog, so I shall rant here. Urgh, that last sentence was extra. AHHH.
okay, let's start with the ranting. I don't know what I'm feeling at the moment. but i know I'm hell stressed and I can't stand school and I don't wanna go anymore and Its irrtating me to the core But I can't do anything about it because I'm being made to go to school everyday. If only I'd just fall sick and maybe I'll be able to miss one day of all that crap with the teachers around and then I can sleep late and not care about that stupid alarm which sets off in my ear every morning. and that irritates the hell out of me too. I feel like swearing all of a sudden and I think I shall the next chance I get. Its a way to relieve stress I swear. Its one of the only ways that actually make me shout and scream and hit and slap. so that makes me feel better. who wants to be my punching bag. :/ I'm also feeling confused. because I swear what I said did happen, I SWEAR. but then, turns out I had a choice. of whether I could stand the choice that was made yesterday. And turns out I didn't want to. HAH. I really don't see the point in people thinking that I'm just being lame and I feel like killing myself. and I think I should soon, no matter what promise I made. I will. because I cannot stand this world. and I dont know. I will work on whatever problems I have. But guess what, they keep piling up and thus, I don't know what to do with them. So I have decided to give up, soon. and No one shall stop me. The only thing that can is probably if everything sorts itself out. Which is impossible. maybe i should finish secondary school. then right before O levels I'll die. Like, then they can blame the O levels and maybe they'll stop forcing people to have O levels and probably the juniors might thank me. Which is actually a stupid thought. Because then the juniors will only get some counselling on relieving stress and they won't get any help from that because some old frumpy lady is going to come to the stage and talk nonsense like, "We have to breathe in and out." HAH. but whatever, maybe living two more years is possible. because cars do not hit me like they should. Its not fair. Pearlyn gets hit. and I don't. PFFT. I swear. Its all just so sucky. URHG. so stressed. I feel like my whole body is tending up for some big amazing miracle to happen. BLAH.
maybe I should wait till 2012 to die. since everyone is saying its the doomsday thing or whatever. probably. I wonder If I will go to heaven. Nah, I don't even believe in God right now. (Sorry Tessa and Pearlyn) yes, I'm a free thinker who thinks that the world is unfair because someone said so. The world is unfair. and to get your fair share, you have to work for it. but you know what. I'm working, and trying so hard to get good grades and stuff, it just doesn't seem fair that I feel like I'm failing just because some people say that I am. its so horrible,
Did you know that it hurts every time. I don't know what I want. Closer or further. Because its all so confusing. IT SUCKS TO BE CONFUSED. I swear

I AM SO CONFUSED.

horrifying (I love this word)

That's my rants. Urhg.
Did you know Zoey stole something from the teacher today. (Although it was rightfully ours) I'm so amazed. :D It was a secret. stupid.

and it hurts more and more each day,
HARRIET.